Project Pan: Pan Porn

Courtesy to whoever came up with #panporn on Instagram and to all the amazing YouTubers who are blazing tracks with their #projectpan.

So I started my panning journey late March 2018 (read post here)

Products I had chosen, my progress and new products introduced are as follows;

Bobbi Brown sheer finish pressed powder in Warm Natural:  Pleased to inform that the pan has expanded quite a bit. Yaay! I have now started to set my eye primer with it too. It works well.

Lancome Grandiose Smudgeproof mascara (black): This started to smell so I had to throw it away. However I did a swatch test on a tissuse to see how many uses it had left.

Approximately 10 days of wear I think. This is how I used it as it grew drier: 3 strokes for 1 eye , then dip and 3 strokes for the other.

In a previous post I had mentioned why I am not going to re-purchase.I don’t like wet formulas and it smudged on me. I bought it because of YouTube. (grimace)

I have added the L’Oreal Voluminous Lash Paradise waterproof and a mini Benefit Bad Gal Bang. I am enjoying them both but the Benefit Bad Gal is my fav, it’s always been.Mascara

L’oreal Infallible Paints Liquid Eyeliner Pen in Black Party 300: Done! Not gonna re-purchase. (read ‘why not’ here)

While I prefer waterproof formulas I do need to use up my Shu Uemura Calligraphy pen. It is not waterproof but it is old. I have also added the Maybelline Lasting Drama Waterproof Gel pencil liner.Shu Mayb

The Maybelline one will be a long one because I don’t reach for this often. The black is a rich black gel that sets well but it tends to smudge rather badly on me. (My oily lids are no match for anyone or anything.)

Jordana Easy Liner for Lips in Rose Crush: I am not sure why I bought a lip liner because I just don’t use lip liners. This one will be a LOOOONG haul. There is a lot to go !

I have now decided to apply it all over my lips and let it set and then I apply my project pan item the Maybelline Color Sensational in Untainted Spice (satin) over it. I like how the satin feels more matte when applied over the liner.Mayb Lip Jordana Lip.001

Maybelline 14 hr Super Stay Lipstick in Always Plum (matte):  I LOVE this. The formula and the colour. But my lips tend to be dry and I wear the satin more often than this matte. Not satisfied with struggling to pan 1 matte lippie I decided to add one more.

The MAC Viva Glam Rihanna 2.  I am worried about it. It’s starting to go dry even though it’s newer than the two Maybelline lipsticks. If it goes bad it will be a colossal waste of money because I have hardly used it.

MAC Viva Glam 3 pics.001It is a warm copper mauve with a frosted/metallic finish. It’s unusual but not a  ‘lets do a grocery run’ kind of colour for me. But I need to find a way to make it work as an everyday, day time colour. Perhaps trying to mix it with my other lip products to make it more daytime/wearable? Dunno.

MAC Bronzing Powder: Finally a glimpse of pan ! I never thought this day would arrive. Like I mentioned in a previous post this bronzer does sweet f-all on my skintone. If I had to choose a product in this category I would go for a contour-matte shade. I am just waaaittiing for it to empty and then I will never buy it again.Bronzer BF AF New.001

Anyway empty it I must. So what I do now is it mix it with another project pan product my Bobbi Brown single eyeshadow in Heather (matte) and use it as a subtle contour!

The purple-grey works well with this brown to give me ‘shadows’ and add a dimension to my face which the bronzer alone was not giving.

Bobbi Brown single eyeshadow in Heather (matte):  Speaking of…..look at the dip in the centre! I have been picking this and the bronzer with my Real Techniques contour brush which is a stiff brush. I swirl my bronzer and then give a poke,poke on the Heather. Not too hard…but look at the DIPPPPP!!! yes!!Heather Swatch and Dip NEW

Working with Heather I have a new found respect for Bobbi Brown eyeshadows.

This is an old single but the formula is amazing. It’s firmly packed, barely any (none) kickup, soft to the touch, blends well and builds beautifully. It’s a really fantastic matte!

I have now started to use it to deepen my outer corner. Example if I use ABH’s DUSTY ROSE in my crease, this Heather is a nice outer corner shade to deepen the look. It is not as dramatic as a grey or dark brown or a black and perfect for work/daytime.

Benefit Hoola Bronzer: My favourite contour shadeI had already hit pan a while back. But this is a sad story. I decided to re-organise it from one magnetic palette to another (why???) and I dropped it.

Beware! When a powder product that has hit pan, like this one, breaks, it crumbles. Mine crumbled into powder..all over my carpet. 😦

Bobbi Brown Pot Rouge for Lips and Cheeks in Calypso Coral &  Shimmer Blush in Pink Sugar: BB Cream Blush and Powder NEW.001I like cream blushes in summer or for long wear however other than the dip getting deeper I am not sure this is going anywhere soon. This is pigmented and you need a tiny bit. This is an old one. I honestly think this will go bad (start to smell, or dry up) before I can pan/empty it.

The shimmer blush is heavily pigmented, needs a light hand, hence hard to pan. The all over shimmer finish that is not my favourite at this stage in my life.

A.N.Y.W.A.Y. I was again trying to re-organise the magnetic palettes and the blush cracked while I was trying to do it. I repressed it with some alcohol, but the top layer of one side fell off and it got hard pan where I used the alcohol to press it back.

No biggie can still use it. I wont be re-purchasing this or any other shimmer blush like this. I like my blushes matte.

Elf High Definition Under Eye setting powder: This seems to be going pretty well. It’s hard to see through pictures but the level is reducing. It’s nice but i don’t like the micro glitter bits it has.ELF Under EYE PDR.001

Charlotte Tilbury Colour Chameleon cream eyeshadow in Dark Pearl & Jordana 12 Hour Made to Last Liquid Eyeliner Pencil in Espresso : I love both of these products. I have measured the pencils as they stand now. We will see how they go. The Jordana pencil I bought around Feb this year so it will be with me for a while 🙂 I prefer this to the Maybelline pencil.CharTill Jordana

MAC Prep and Prime Lip Primer :Done and not re-purchasing. (read why here.) This was the easiest because it was already nearly over. Foolishly I did not keep the empty tube so I could photograph it here.

It was the first product I emptied from my project pan and in my excitement could not wait to get rid of it in the recycle bin.

A victory ‘basket’ of sorts!

NYX HD Eyeshadow base : I like the NYX primer but I gave it to my sister.

I basically sent my sister a small goody bag of makeup to lift her spirits. She is entering the workforce after 10 years of being a mum and needs a boost of confidence. I bought her some makeup and decided to send her this barely used primer so she can start to play with eyeshadows.

The last time she played with eye makeup the concept of primer was alien and there were no YouTube vloggers to help us! I wanted her to playing with something I had ‘used’ and could ‘vouch’ for.

For my own pan, I swapped this item with a mini Urban Decay Anti Aging primer .

Becca Shimmering Skin Perfector in Champagne Pop (Powder & Liquid): The powder I sent to my sister. Highlighter is a COMPLETELY new concept for her so it will be fun to see what she thinks.

So now I am left the liquid highlighter.

I really dislike it and not sure how I will pan/empty this ! I mean l like subtle but not invisible. For me this is another of those overrated ‘YouTube made me buy it’ products.

I honestly prefer Benefit’s Girl Meets Pearl way more than this.

Anyone who lives in Seattle and doesn’t care about germs 🙂 came and take it from me. It’s a mini so don’t get too excited.

So that’s it.

Wish me luck !




Project Pan: Pan Roulette 25th June 2018


I was inspired to Project Pan Roulettte after watching YT beauty vloggers. Read my post on what my categories are and how to play Pan Roulette here

I had an outdoor event the 25th of June so I went to play !

I have 50 categories in total and the numbers generated by were : 9, 16, 31, 7, 11, 23, 14, 25, 26, 35.June 25th Palette roulette EYES CU

# 9 is EYELINER. Being an outdoor event in summer I need smudge-proof. I chose my Japanese Heroine Make waterproof eyeliner pen. Japanese brush tip eyeliner pens are my favourite ! I love brush tips be it for my Tombow pens or my eyeliner pens.

Alas the Shu Uemura calligraphy pens don’t come in waterproof inks :(. Because if it did, the SHU would be my Holy Grail.

#16 is Mascara. Again I need smudge-proof so it has to be the only waterproof mascara I own the L’Oreal Voluminous Lash Paradise waterproof.

#31 is a Brow product. I don’t like doing my brows so the brow product I used was the ELF Brow Wax to hold my brows in place.

Ughhhhh I am not going to re-purchase this. This pulls my eyebrows out even with the gentlest swipe and the hold is rubbish.

I like the ELF clear brow mascara way better. Just remember to wipe the wand clean before ‘double dipping because the clear gel so gets gross with foundation colour or brow colour after several uses.

#7 is a Highlighter/Illuminator. I chose my Becca Champagne Pop liquid highlighter. Good thing I have a sample size because honestly I am not impressed by it and will not re-purchase. This particular product also appears under the category “hyped by YouTube”. Overrated rubbish, IMHO.

I much prefer to use my Viseart Paris Nudes shadows as a highlighter or my Hour Glass Ambient lighting powder or even my ELF Blushed Gems baked highlighter. (read post here)

#11 is a Lip Balm. I have 2 coloured lip balms, one is a sheer red and the other is a mauve. I wore the Mentholatum Lip Baby crayon (mauve/pink).

#23 is categorized as ‘something you love’. One of the things I love is my Charlotte Tilbury Colour Chameleon Eyeshadow Pencil in Dark Pearl. I usually line my lower lashes with this because it’s most flattering. At my age I do not like dark liners on the lower lashes. It just drags the face down and looks too dated and too harsh.

#14 is a concealer. I chose the Maybelline Instant Age Rewind in Golden instead of the WnW Medium Tawny. 

Golden is not brightening rather it is a match for my face. I just buffed it around my face so it meshed seamlessly with the rest of my face.  That way I didn’t have to bother with foundation.

#25 is the category ‘something from NYX’. I used the matte brown shades from the NYX Beauty School Dropout palette.

#26 is under the category of ‘something old’. I have a few oldies in my stash but I picked an old cream blush since I did not get a blush in my random numbers. It is the Bobbi Brown Pot Rouge in Calypso Coral.

and the 10th product/item is # 35, ‘an expensive product’. Amongst the few items I have under this category I chose my Viseart Paris Nudes palette. I used two shimmers from this palette to my movable lid. A pinky one and the more bronze one.

full face June 25th Final
The only way blush of any type will show up on my camera is if I do clown cheeks. I do have blush on I promise.




Eyeshadow; Smashbox Cover Shot Smoky

I love this little thing! This is my only Smashbox eyeshadow palette and I am definitely impressed.

I don’t know why they don’t get enough love amongst the YouTube beauty channels. But once in a while someone does a de-clutter and they reference these dinky little things and say good things about them.SmashBox Insta

These shadows are described as low shimmers (and high shimmers) but I would describe them as shiny satins, if that is even a thing. Not a glitter speck in sight.

They are buttery to the touch and it is only the green shade that has some fall out. However it is a habit with me to tap my brush. I do it no matter what.

There is no kick back and I rarely use my finger to get the payoff I want. I just use my synthetic Shu Uemura 10 for the 4 satin/shimmer shades. Pat, pat, pat.EyeBrushes

As an NC42 Indian skintone, the Cream matte is really fantastic on my lids. Brings on a brightness without looking ashy.

And I love love love the neutral Brown matte shade in this palette. “I love you so much neutral brown (kiss) (kiss)”. In all my brown mattes this is the only one that adds a natural looking contour and looks like I have spent ages blending and creating a contour, when I have not.

Basically a lot of brown/caramel transition and crease shades that are added in palettes don’t add any dimension on my lid.  I often have to dip into the deepest brown to get that dimension…and oh you know those deep browns. They are dangerous, hard to blend and often patchy. Scary!

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Green. Bronze and top right , Silver. The cream matte was used across the lid up-to the brow bone.

While the shimmers are low-shimmers (shiny satins :)) for me this is definitely not a sombre* work-day palette.

It IS a smoky palette so I am making a redundant statement here but then again I always try to see where, and how, I can get away with just 1 palette.

I have worked in media all my life, where, generally speaking, the makeup can be bolder than say a bank*, hospital* or school*. The only shade I would use is the Bronze for my work day. It’s close to my skin-tone and yet adds a little pizzaz. I used the green on my a lower lash in the above image.

At a business cocktail I would use the silver and the grey matte or the black matte to line my eyes.

Aah yes the matte Black has sparkles which…….umm I don’t know why brands do this…

On lighter skin-tones I think the cream, the brown and the matte grey could add a natural  ‘work day’ dimension but on my dark eyelids it is like ‘mm why bother’.

psst Truth be told I am not an all matte gal. I must must must pair my mattes with a satin or a shimmer on my lids.

As a novice I am very happy with the mild intensity of the matte grey and black. They are not crazy dark, blend beautifully and add the right amount of depth for my outer v.

I am literally scared of deep, dark blacks, greys and browns. I can not work with them, but these, I love.

Now for the silver. I don’t like silver shimmers. They are either frosty or ashy on me and because of that not an age appropriate look on me. This one is not. It is a very flattering silver. I am impressed.

For me this is not a travel palette either. Not only for the reason I mentioned in the ‘work-day’ bit but because I would get bored of the dark shades. On holiday I like a choice of warm, bright and smoky shimmers (and satins) for those fun night outs.

The shade eggplant is ….err… eggplant. Worn all over my lid you can see the colour really well but alas my smart-phone camera is picking it up as brown. So I did not include it in this blog.

Also IRL because my lids have a purple under-tone the contrast with this shade is not really there. You can see it, but not….baaam.

On my skin-tone the green is dark but ‘opens’ up my lids but the eggplant closes it. So I will always use it outer third, never on my entire lid.

The swatches above are without a primer. Also I have not a done wear test.

FYI my ABH Soft Glam palette has VERY  poor wear on me, whatever the primer, set or not set. In-fact same with my UD Naked 3.

I think my oily, hooded lids are no match for any brand. (surprisingly my Wet and Wild Colour Icon shades do really really REALLY well. Probably cheaper, dryer formulas work? I don’t know)

So would I buy more Smashbox Cover Shot palettes ? Yes. And I love the fact they are dinky. Perfect size.

I am S.O. over huge pans or large palettes. Dust collectors and anxiety providers because they will outlive me, especially in project pans.





Makeup: Lessons from Project Pan

Project Pan is like a weightloss plan. You need discipline and it takes time.

I started my project pan March 2018. Read post here  I put $ value against the things I need to use up. Almost $239(+tax) worth of stuff. 20180306_094412This is NOT counting Eyeshadows. Eyeshadows added an additional $250.

Now if you have been on a project pan journey, you know how hard it is to use up makeup. It takes ages to hit pan and then even longer to empty that pan.

And through this journey you will meet Boredom & Patience, head-on!

However for me personally the first thing I had to/have to wrestle with is Discipline. I see people on their project pans who have the absolute discipline to stick to a single palette or lipstick for a month!  I can’t.

Eyeshadows is the worst for me. And I have no excuses. I have a tiny eyeshadow collection (made up mostly of Regrets!) and I struggle to stick to one palette. I dabble in a new one everyday!

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The ’empty’ pans you see were dud shades I threw away. They were annoying me.

Out of all my eye shadows the easiest palettes to pan are Wet n Wild’s Comfort Zone, Viseart’s Petit Pro 1 and Anastasia Beverly Hill’s Soft Glam palette. Each can take you day to night, every single day.

Comfort Zone and Petit Pro 1 should be no brainers right ? Small enough to hit pan and feel a sense of accomplishment.

That sense of accomplishment which is the carrot a novice panner like me needs to persevere on.

My next strategy after that would be to attack the neutral matte shades, which I have many of thanks to the 3 Wet n Wild Colour Icon palettes I bought, and pair those with the NYX Love You So Mochi Electric (all shimmer) palette.

And I could always rotate the eyeshadows. A palette a week and then rotate.

Easier said than done. I lack that discipline. Very much like my lack of discipline with cookies and chocolate.

And it takes Patience because you can not hurry hitting pan. You have to work through the discipline (and boredom) of using that same palette every day for a week, or for a month, and then allow for time to hit pan.

If I need to be successful in my Project Pan I need to pray for discipline! Pray? yes I take my makeup seriously, okay! 😛

But all is not lost. I have learnt a very useful lesson. The lesson to prevent un-necessary accumulation of stufffff.

I shudder to buy more product because I now know how long it takes, and how hard it is to finish it up.

Do I need one more blush ? No! I can barely make a dent in the one I have.

Do I need one more highlighter ? Heck no. I am sick of the one I have but I must finish it because I spent good money on it.

I have also learn’t the lesson that full size makeup is too damned big to finish and when I repurchase it will be MINIs where possible.  The reality is that I get bored with the brand halfway through it’s life anyway.

Note: For skincare and toiletries I have always had one of everything. I use it up then buy another. The real struggle is makeup. It’s so pretty and sparkly and colourful!







Sasa Duds: BCL 24h Browlash Water Strong Eyeliner

BCL BROWLASH EX Water Strong  Eyeliner is a double ended eyeliner pen with an eye shadow powder on the other end.

It’s made in Japan  and claims to be waterproof, with a no smudge long lasting (that’s the 24h stamp for you ) formula.

I bought this in Sasa for HKD 89. I bought the black one with a light gold shimmer shadow.


If you google BCL you will find a few Asian blogs, all singing it’s praises.

The brush is gorgeous. Soft and flexible. It’s beautifully thin and hugs my lashline very easily. And I always have trouble finding something thin enough for that.

It’s fantastic for my small hooded eyes because it defines the eye without overwhelming it.

While the eye shadow dome feels rough the eye shadow  in itself delivers a subtle sheen. Probably more noticeable on lighter skin tones than mine. It’s subtle enough to say wear it for a job interview!

I was so happy I wanted to walk right back into Sasa and buy a second one.

But I got busy and didn’t. ……And THANK F***ING GOD I DIDN’T!! Because for the next two days it showed its fugly side!

If you draw a normal, slightly thicker line ie not a lash-hugging line it Fails, Flakes, Smudges and eventually goes into COMPLETE Melt down mode.

LOOK 1: SMUDGING. Not sweating but slightly sticky. Mainly aircon.
LOOK 2: Flaking. Walked around running errands, in the out of aircon.
LOOK 3: MENTAL. 30 mins in sun, it’s humid and my face is wet.
LOOK 4: PISSED OFF. Continues to melt inspite of me wiping off the ‘meltdown’ in Look 3

The above pictures were all taken after applying my ‘matt’ sunscreen. I did give the sunscreen 20 mins to absorb.

So I decided to try it without sunscreen but after moisturiser, after giving it time to fully absorb.

I tried it without moisturiser or eye cream.

Same bullsh*t. Waterproof ? Smudge proof? my big fat a**

Rant Over.

Thank you have a nice day.

Placebo Effect of Makeup

Everyone will tell you makeup makes you feel better. When depressed put on a pair of high heels and lipstick

Everyone knows the story behind Banksy’s famous graffiti. When a truckload of lipsticks arrived at a concentration camp and the women put it on almost immediately.

Basically its not the point that makeup makes us feel better. I think makeup can sometimes make us believe its DOING what it says it will do.

Example ? Benefits THAT GAL. I got it as a gift . A mini .

Its supposed to brighten a dull complexion. It also acts as a primer

I am going to give you a quick run down of my reaction from Dec 2012 – August 2013

Dec 2012

“what is a primer ?”

“its pink and makes my face look grey”



Feb 2013

“what is a primer ? do I need it ? no idea”

“nah still pink, still grey cast”

“where is the brightening ?”

“definitely not buying this ever”

Feb 2013 – June 2013 it sat in my vanity bag. I would look at it from time to time thinking what am I going to do ? I did not have the heart to throw it away.

Then one fine morning in July I woke up, had to run to the store even before my shower. So I brushed my teeth, washed my face, wore a clean pair of undies, wore my Clinique (oh how I love you !) under eye cream….it lightly tinted and I think makes me look a wee bit less tired.

…and then I looked at my face. I looked a bit whatever, dull.

so I put on some That Gal, just for a lark. Guess what ? I thought I looked a bit “brighter”. hmmmm

Thought to myself “maybe it does do what it says it does”.

Aug 3rd, I am off to my friend’s house for a sleep over with just girls, wine and dvds.

So I am not bothering with makeup. just serum, my Clinique eye cream….and then looked at myself again. Thought “I cant be bothered with makeup…but I do look a bit dull”.

So I reached over to my That Gal again……and lo and behold I looked bright. I even brought it down to my neck to “match” this brightness.

I think this is the Placebo effect. A product that has received terrible reviews, did nothing for me even when I so desperately wanted it to work….and 9 months later…all of a sudden it works ?

No I dont think so.