Dabbling in Lent

I am a Hindu. Practicing, non-practicing  and everywhere in between.

I don’t regularly visit temples or participate in all the numerous Hindu religious holidays but have Hindu icons sprinkled around my home, am respectful towards my holy book the Bhagwad Gita, will recite a quick prayer before a flight, join my palms and bow my head when I pass a temple and my absolute favourite Goddess is Ma Durga.fe3c75a921e5d0a71a8aa376f741224c

I used to be a lot more ‘Hindu’ right upto around 2011.

I had faith. Faith in prayer and in a God who would look after me. I would light incense and say a prayer in front of my Hindu altar table every morning before rushing off to work.

And then my mother died. A horrible, horrible, stretched out death. That was when I lost my faith. I lost faith that someone was ‘out there’ looking out for me.

I left God, of rather faith in God left my heart. I could not come to grips with the fact that I believed, I BELIEVED…. and I was let down.

After the initial feeling of betrayal and bewilderment, I spent a the next few years lost and incredibly sad.

I can not describe the loneliness it brings within oneself. That feeling that there was nothing there…nothing.

Then as the years passed a coldness entered my heart. I had turned away from God and I felt nothing.

In-fact my Hindu altar table was dismantled before I moved to America and here in my new home there is no altar. I light incense as an air freshener!

And then 4 days back,  I decided I will give up something for Lent.

Hang on a minute ! Lent ? What’s that ? Why ? Why Lent ?? I can not explain. I just decided.  Baaam!

3 days back I watched a short clip on RT News on Lent anchored by a hip, non-believer -believer…you know the type I mean ? And after that report I did a search ‘giving up something for Lent’. The first website I click open reads thus

Today we know Lent as a season of conversion: We acknowledge the ways we have turned away from God in our lives, and We focus on turning our hearts and minds back toward God.  

So here I am starting a brand new journey. A journey in symbolism. Let’s see where it takes me.

1993 Hong Kong was a new beginning for me. 2017 America is going to be Part 2 of that I believe.


Feeling Positive!




Neutrogena Anti Wrinkle. WTF Just Happened ??

Seriously WTF just happened ? The story I am about is a strange one 🙂 and if ANYONE knows the answer to this please write to me in the comments.

Once a upon a time there was a beautiful Vitamin who everyone loved.  A Vitamin with long thick hair, smooth skin and luscious lips. This Vitamin was referred to as Retinol by her subjects.  All of whom loved and adored her and wanted her in their lives forever..…♥♥

So I jumped onto the Retinol bandwagon as anyone, …..everyone …over the age of 25 should.

However being a Retinol newbie I am going slow. Before I leap onto Paula’s Choice and their ilk, I wanted to start gentle.

Neutrogena’s Retinol skincare has all beauty editors raving, infact even Beautypedia has positive reviews about their line, so off I went to get me some OTC Retinol- with-training-wheels.

This is what I did. I was ordering a non-skid yoga towel (OMG I LOVE IT !!!!) , a Cuisinart hand (cake) mixer off Walmart.com and decided to add the Neutrogena Healthy Skin Anti Wrinkle Night cream onto that order. And its cheaper than Walgreens !

The product arrives and I check the ingredients list. And this is where things get a bit iffy. Guess what ? On the product received Retinol appears LAST, yes LAST on the ingredient list.

I am like eh ???? What is the % of Retinol in this thang, does it even work? Is it even worth it ? Even the fabulous Green Tea extract floats around somewhere at the bottom


However this same product on walmart.com and neutrogena.com has this ingredient list. Check out where Green Tea Extract and Retinol appears.


Ingredients: C12-15 Alkyl Benzoate, Glycerin, Cetyl Alcohol, Cetearyl Alcohol, Octyl Hydroxystearate, Dimethicone, Camellia Sinensis Leaf Extract, Retinol, Panthenol, Disodium EDTA, Tocopherol, Cetearyl Glucoside, Tocopheryl Acetate, Polysorbate 20, Triethanolamine, Methylparaben, Propylparaben, Butylene Glycol, Diazolidnyl Urea, BHT, Carbomer.

I have written to walmart who I am sure will say “ok… return the product” shrug shrug. The product received is not the product ordered however I am SURE even Walmart will impressed with my excellent detection work.

I have written on the Neutrogena website too.

I just want to know what the hell is this ?

New formulation ? old formulation ? God knows.

Would you know ?